Apne miyaji ki sharaab peene ki lat, phir mujhe bura bhala kehna, jaise mere liye ek shaap ban gaya ho. Maine unke liye kya kya nahi kiya. Pooja paath, vrat, mandiro mein jana lekin unper iska koi asar nahi hai. Aise mein main apne aap ko sach mein ek bebas naari hi kahungee.

Main ek software engineer 34 saal ki shaadishud hoon. Main ek private company mein kaam karti hoon. Shareer se bhaari hoon, lekin dil to apna bhi hai na. Mujhe bhi koi pyar karne wala chahye tha, jo mujhe pyar kare, jisse main baate kar sakoon, jo mujhe hasaye, jiske liye main accha accha khana banakar use khila sakoon. Kyunki mere miyaji bhi ek private company mein kaam karte hain. Unki duty ka samay shaam 5 baje se subeh 6 baje tak hai. Ghar me ghusne se pehle miyaji daaru laga kar aate hain. Aur 8 baje soone chale jaate hain. Main unki is aadat se pareshaan thi.

Unki inhi harkato ke chalte, jab main raat ko akeli hoti, to chat per baith jaati aur ladko se chat karti. Baat 6 saal pehle ki hai, main apna job khatm karke ghar aayee. Miyaji bhi apne office jaa chuke the. Raat ko free hokar main chat per baith gayee. Us din meri ek aise ladke se chat huayee jisne mere mote hone ke karan bhi mujhe pasand kiya. Hum dono dheere dheere roj chat karte, aur main usse chat karna ka hamesha intzaar karti. Weekend per hamari chat nahi ho paati kyunki miyaji ghar per hoote, aur main tadap jaati.

Ab dheere dheere hum dono ek doosre se phone per bhi baat karne lage. Uske baat karne ka style aur hasee majaak mujhe accha lagne laga. Wo muje gande chutkale aur har baat per koi na koi joke bol kar hasata. Mujhe wo ab apna sa lagne laga tha. Ek baar main raat ko kareeb 11 baje office se aayee, aur khana khaake aur nahakar maine use phone kiya. Maine use webcam per aane ko kaha. Wo online hua aur hum dono ne apna apna webcam on kar diya. Us din shayad main mood me thi, aur baat karte karte usne jab mujhse mere stan (boobs) dekhne ki baat kahee, maine bina kuch soche samjhe use apne stano ke darshan karwa diye. Unhe dekhkar wo to jaise pagal ho gaya. Main to pagal hi thi, mujhse raha nahi gaya aur phir hum dono ne webcam per apne apne kapde uttre, aur ek doosre ko webcam per vastraheen dekha.

Iske baad ab hum dono khul chuke the. Aur dheere dheere ab meri chah us ladke mein badh rahi thi. Phir ek din maine use apne ghar aane ka nimantran de diya. Wo aaye aur hum dono ne apne zism ko ek doosre ke zism se thanda kiya. Us ladke se mera pehla sparsh mujhe aaj bhi yaad hai. Main ek moti naari hoon, lekin jis terh se usne mujhe shaant kiya, mere liye na bhulne wala ek lamha ban gaya.

Mere mijaji ki aaj bhi sharaab peene ki lat, ghar ko na dekhna, aur mere se paise maangne mujhe aisa lagne laga, jaise kya meri yahi zindagi hai? Kya mein ek insaan nahi hoon? Kya meri koi khwayashe nahi hain? Tabhi maine apne aap ko ek bebas naari paya, aur ek aise insaan ko, jise main 6 saal pehle internet per mili thi, aaj bhi uske contact me hoon. Hum dono aaj bhi phone per baate karte hain, ek doosre ko adar dete hain, pyar karte hain lekin koi dikhawa nahi karte. Meri yahi ek bebasi thi, jiske karan mujhe ye kadam uthana pada.